As I sit here watching all 6 seasons of Sex and the City it's becoming clear that I have to get used to doing my own thing. Single and ready to mingle. NOT. I hate being single if I can be honest. Dating sucks. Finding a good guy is like trying to count the number of stars in the sky. It's as if there are not many good guys my age! And the ones who are my age are gay or married. So you date someone younger and they are too...I dunno...something. And they aren't ready for anything that you are ready for. So you end up looking silly and alone because he they are too busy being involved with themselves.
I totally understand why Carrie had a love affair with shoes. And then she had a love affair with an older, somewhat together, gentlemen by the name of Mr. Big. So yea, I know one day my..uh...Mr. Big...will come. But right now I am going to embrace being single and just do my own thing. But as much I know in my heart that's what I need and I'm going to do the question remains: after being attached to someone for 3 years...
How do you re-learn to be single?
Well for starts, I can focus on ME for a change. I have spent my whole life it seems thinking of others, it's time to be a little selfish. Nothing wrong with a little selfishness from time to time right! Focus on school and and learning how to experience new things in my life. Go on trips and hang out with the girls. Try foods I have never had, buy my first apartment, just live. But live for me!!! It's liberating and scary at the same time! And one day, Mr. Big, lol.
Now I am not saying that I'm over the break up. Trust me I'm not. It's kinda hard to be over it when you see that person on daily basis. But I digress. I know that with great girlfriends and an amazing family to help me get through it, I will be stronger then ever. A year from now, who knows what kind of person I'll be. One thing is for sure....Imma be doing my thang!
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