Yes Gawd!

What's up peeps! Just popping in to let y'all know what's new. I know I said I was gonna post more but y'all the struggle is real. Lol. I'm trying. I am also working on hopefully getting an actual camera (Saints pray! 🙏🏾) and revamping this page. I decided that this is something I want to utilize more to document my self discovery. You're never too old to find yourself and I feel like because we change so much over time we go through many times of self discovery. But this one for me is special and I want to share along the way.

Someone who really inspired me was Shamless Maya (will post a video below). If you have never seen her let me tell you she is not only funny and talented but she just has a way about her. She is very free with her feelings and emotions and she always shares positive messages. I really like her channel. Anyway after watching one particular video I was just inspired! I've wanted to start a YouTube channel for the longest but felt like I didn't have anything to offer. But I'm working on some ideas and I think I'm just gonna do it. Even if I'm the only person who ever watches them, at least I put myself out there and went for it. I'm not even doing it for that reason, I just want to create! I'm at my happiest when I'm being creative and I need that a lot right now. So anyway, yea I'm gonna let go and let God as they say and just go for it! I have nothing to lose! Anyway! Talk to you beautiful people later!✌🏾❤️

Shameless Maya

http://youtu.be/gnuZaUzVlmY

I'm in a fog....ZZZzzzZZZzzz

Focus seems to be what I am lacking as of late. I am not holding my own with school, work, and working out. I'm just tired. (Depression maybe? It's the only reason I can think of.) I just can't seem to get it together and I have to get it together. But I just wanna sleep...ALL THE TIME. And my dilemma as it were, is that I don't want to be medicated all the time. It makes me feel so weird and not like myself. I hate it. I was prescribed prozac. (Yes it was that bad.) But I have stopped taking it. I feel fine other than being ridiculously tired. I am at least myself. I'm kinda outgoing, more so than I was. It's literally that I just wanna sleep...all day...and all night...nothing else matters.

Has anyone else been in this position? Any suggestions?

I've tried vitamin B, multivitamins...energy drinks....tons of coffee...LOL. 

Nothing works. I need something (natural if possible) that will give me energy. Leave me a comment and let me know what you guys do for energy and focus. 

Clarity...and a whole lot of honesty....

Okay y'all...Trying something different. I recorded it but I didn't do any editing. It's the first video and it's mostly just to explain why I'm doing this. I will do better on future blogs...er...vlogs...LOL

Anyhoo...check it out. :)

Under Construction

Revamping this here blog o' mine to give a fresh new start. I will be relaunching it soon, so stay tuned for more on my crazy life, but also added content like reviews on movies, food, and some of my amazon purchases. I will also be asking you guys for ideas on what you want to read about to keep this blog updated and fresh. New blog post weekly! And as I stated in the previous post, VLOGS! (Video Blogs, for those who don't know! Now ya know! LOL)

See you guys soon!!!

I've been thinkin'...I've been thinkin'....

....That I may start doing a video blog. I did a video for class and I got a lot of good feedback. I think it would show a little more of me and it's pretty fun to make the videos. I could like them on here and add them to youtube. It's a thought. I'll keep you guys posted but for now, if you want to see the video I did for class it's below. Feedback would be awesome!  It's not perfect (example, the last title page should say "It's all about me" and it says "it's all day" No idea why, lol), it's my first time doing it but I would love to hear what you guys think. Thanks!!! 

Love the way you Dye...

Like a lot of women, I like to get creative and dye my hair crazy colors. Live on the edge!

 OK, so maybe not crazy. Just black. But I have been doing it for years. And for the last couple of years I have used this particular dye. And it worked great...except this time...

This time, the dye was not my friend. I have the worlds worst rash from the top of my head down the top of my back and shoulders! It's horrible. I mean itching so much you can't even sleep. So now I am slathered in Calamine Lotion, Cortisone 10, and Aveno Lotion. Joy of joys! Just what I need right now.  

Well, turns out, I should be glad I am just itching!! There have been reports of people using this brand of dye and dying from the reaction! WHAT?? You can DIE from DYE!? 

Oh heck naw! I'm done! No more hair dye for this girl! That particular cost of beauty is a lil too high thank you very much! 

Moral of the story, no amount of my vanity is worth the rash, or death!

Can't deal....Death by Dye. Mind boggling!

Rumor has it...

Rumors are pesky little buggers. One little drop of speculation sends them into a rumor mill frenzy. Remember in high school hearing the "Well so-and-so told what's-her-name that she did such-and-such with you-know-who, you-know-where" stories? You would think as we grow older we would in turn grow wiser and be less into these usually tall tales. But nope. In some cases, it gets worse...who knew!? 

I know what you're thinking: "Who doesn't gossip a little bit?" And you're right. We are all guilty of it. We are all guilty of being a lot of things - Bad friends, bad girl/boy friends, even bad relatives at times. But, for the most part, we tend to be well meaning. It's when well meaning turns into malicious and mean that problems arise. When you throw away those things you once found value in and start placing more value on revenge or getting a leg up on others. 

But it does beg the question: At what point do we outgrow such childish behavior?

Apparently for some...Never. 

As I see the dramas unfold in my life and the lives of others, it makes me pray that one day, we will get it together. I hate seeing friendships end, relationships destroyed based on outside noise, and family's at war over nosey people. I can't bare to watch. It's gruesome.